Owning My Identy

I for one am exhausted by the world we live in. Pulled on from all sides by media, music, image, ideas... I have always been good at ignoring or maybe more accurately put dissociating from this constant bombardment of loaded messages but I still feel swamped over by the insanity of the modern world. Paralyzed in a state of uncomfortable passivity that is no one's responsibility but my own to move from.

I don't know where to turn to find what is real. I don't want to withdraw from the world but I don't know what to do. I don't want to play the status game that is the cultural narrative handed down by advertising.

The options presented by media are unsatisfying but refusal alone has gotten me nowhere. I am tired of mourning the lack of community and instead want to motivate myself to take an active part in building community.

I need to take the initiative to understand myself and take informed action in my life. Advertising cultivates a passive attitude towards life and I think that I have despised it so much that I have bought into indecisive inaction. It takes inner strength to navigate this confusing world we live in. I resolve to strengthen myself, so I can better share who I am with the world and not be swamped by the culture of advertising.